IT'S OFFICIAL
My 'glitches' are almost solved. Jimmy is being very responsive -- even answering e-mails at 11:30 pm, midnight, whenever. Kudos to Jimmy & others responsible for the new site.
I've asked Jimmy if there is a possibility that Anusara-Inspired™ instructors can have a 'lounge'. Ever since I first noticed the 'lounge' feature and realized that I couldn't get it in, I've wondered what's in there? what secrets does it hold? why can't we go in?
Karen has a framed sign in her studio, Garden Street Yoga. It is very ornate, gilded, and sits in front of a gold curtain. What does it say?
Or something like that. It caused me to chuckle -- it also is how I view entrance to the 'lounge' on the Anusara™ website. I want in! (Another reason to pursue Certification.)
Jimmy's response: Good idea - he and the Anusara™ staff are testing out some new features, and that may be one that gets added.
What a 'boon' that would be. A place for us to ask questions, discuss, communicate; and - importantly - a place for Anusara™ to offer information designated just for the Inspired instructors -- i.e. changes or additions to the reading list, other changes in the curriculum, etc. We would even welcome Certified Instructors to visit -- because they have lots of good stuff to offer.
If you see potential in this idea, let the Anusara™ office know -- in particular Jimmy (you can contact him thru the website).
Blogs are good for campaigning, as well as communicating.
Enjoy your day,
PATIENCE
Nice class -- she used Durga's story plus the qualities of powerfulness and patience as her theme/heart quality. As we progressed in her sequence, she related parts of poses back to previously done work. I think that instills in the student a bit of "I've already been there, this should not be a problem." I enjoy that.
I mention patience in the title, because I have spent quite a bit of time on the new Anusara website, and e-mailing Jimmy at Anusara, with questions, issues, etc. I just sent him an e-mail, thanking him for his time and pointing out that we may be best friends by the time I get through. I am sure his patience will be tested over the next few days, weeks and - maybe - months as the site becomes de-glitched.
Be sure to check the website if you are Inspired or Certified. As I mentioned yesterday, I was not on there (I am now). Some people, for some reason, did not get pulled over from the old site. Then, when you look at your listing notice that there are a number of questions & bio info spaces. You must login (top right) and then you will be able to edit your profile, fill in the spaces and answers.
This is short -- gotta get ready to drive back to SLC.
Enjoy your Tuesday,
MORE NOTES
Working on that pose I've been asking for input on. Marlene, I tried supta padangusthasana (SP) with success -- at least holding the big toe. But, that gives me hope. I could take the leg out, while maintaining good alignment in the remainder of my body -- that's a good thing. So, I will keep doing hamstring stretches per Cindy and Marlene, practicing SP (which is a laying-down form of utthita hasta padangusthasana (UHP)), continue to work on taking the leg out using a strap while standing (the balancing adds a significant challenge to the pose). Keep you posted.
Logged on to the new Anusara™ website this morning. I guess it went on-line on Sunday (yesterday), and it looks good. On my laptop, it's a bit slow coming up -- but that could be my laptop since everything is slow this morning. I also noticed my name is NOT listed under Anusara-Inspired™. Breathe, Leslie. I tried to contact them thru their website -- error message. Breathe again, Leslie. So, I sent an e-mail to John, since his is the only e-mail address I know. I'll call them in a few minutes. I am understanding about new websites, getting the glitches out, kinks straightened, etc., etc., etc. But, why did they have to leave my name off? Keep breathing, Leslie.
Talking to Anusara as I type -- so, hopefully, this will be resolved a.s.a.p.
I am talking better with my hands, as a result of the ASL classes. Problem is, that as I study the signs for certain things (from books, printouts), each community develops its own variation on some of the signs. So, I tried one in last week's yoga class -- 'see you next week'; turns out that this community uses a bit different sign -- so, they all looked at me a bit inquisitively, figured it out, then told me what they use. Flexibility (as in UHP) is required in all parts of our lives.
Hope to go to class this a.m.
50 & COUNTING
Actually, I think of blogging like writing letters to myself. Reinforcing my knowledge, my strengths, acknowledging my weaknesses, and just chatting (I am VERY good at talking to myself, just so long as I don't answer!). It also appears to commit me to a plan of action -- how can I reneg on a commitment I make to my family, friends, peers, students, community, the Universe and myself.
That brings me back to utthita hasta padangusthana. I have received one comment, plus a couple personal e-mails in response to my blog: PIN (Pose Input Needed).
FYI, since some of you are new to Sanskrit, utthita hasta padangusthana is a standing balance pose where you hold one foot and extend the leg to the front, then out to the side -- while still holding the foot.
Looks like my fear is realized -- the hamstrings are key; there's no other 'magic bullet'. So, daily warming up, and then a bit of lengthening work is needed and I must be diligent. I've been doing more of that this week, just have to keep it up. Thank you for your input -- anyone with a 'magic bullet' is still welcome to comment.
I have applied to the Anusara™ workshop in Park City (September) -- maybe, just maybe, I will be diligent enough to let my neighbor have the pleasure of holding my heel. That's assuming I get in (I have a real reticence to saying I'm going, until I have that acceptance e-mail in my hot little computer.) .
Going to take a walk with husband & dogs, then work on those hamstrings.
Enjoy Sunday,
VIDEOS . . .
My plan is to just set the video camera up in The Yoga Center. Whether it is on or not, will remain a mystery to students. Hoped-for result: students won't spread themselves to the far corners of the room in fear of their backside being recorded in down dog. I also will get more comfortable with the camera and my voice (as it sounds on the camera).
Speaking of the camera -- I took it back to the store for a brief lesson on operation. Didn't get as much help as I expected or wanted. So, I am back to the manual.
Wayne's theory: the video process is actually a well-disguised arm of the Certification process. As in, can we do it? Can we operate a camera, teach in front of a camera, evaluate the video, then - when right - get that class video OFF the camera and onto a disc? Oh, yes, we need to teach effectively on the video, but just the process of video'ing ourselves is a BIG challenge in itself. It is another measure of just how badly we want to be a Certified Anusara™ Yoga Teacher.
The camera will be in the room this morning, so get ready . . .
POSE INPUT NEEDED (aka PIN)
Mine, while valuable, is less lofty: I would like to stand straight, hold my foot and take that leg straight in utthita hasta padangusthasana.
My experience with this pose is mainly during workshops/trainings. I - until now - rarely do it on my own.
Many of you have been in a workshop/training when John will ask for this pose -- everyone gets their leg up, straightens it, extends it out to the side, and then their neighbor holds the heel. My neighbors rarely get that opportunity, since my leg is still bent. Or, if I do get it extended, it's so low that they practically have to do a "side uttanasana" to reach the heel. That adds a little 'extra' to their experience; it does not, however, make me feel very good.
So, I am putting it out to the Universe -- I need help. I know that these components are essential:
- Stand straight (IS/OS, side body long)
- Bring leg up, clasp foot, with knee bent
- IS again, maintain upright posture
- OS as you take leg forward, pressing foot into hand
I also know that warm and lengthened hamstrings are an integral part of the pose. But, I get stuck when my hamstrings begin to scream and my back starts to round. Some of that 'stuck' is caused by fear that something is going to explode.
Suggestions?
At my first teacher training with John, he told us that we need to have 3 ways to say every instruction. This is because each student learns differently, and what rings for the majority may not compute for one -- so, we may need to re-phrase for that one. I am hopeful that someone will have a re-phrasing (or a component I'm missing), and I'll get it.
Enough -- just send a little bit of energy and your thoughts.
Enjoy Friday,
SELF PROMOTION
So, I've been self-promoting this morning on Facebook -- put my blog address in as I joined two Anusara groups. Then, I mentioned it again in my newsletter to students. Plus, I talk it up in each of my classes and have it posted on my website. All this, as a result of an article forwarded to me by a friend re: 'how to get people to read your blog'. There's more, but this is a good start.
Today will be a busy one -- I teach at the Community Center for the Deaf and Hard of Hearing this morning. My intention was to study some of the signs I've been learning (refresh my memory) and maybe use them during class. I better get this blog done, walk the dogs, and - hopefully - carry out that intention.
Then, I have scheduled myself to teach a new class at The Yoga Center (based on one Darren & John described in Tucson) -- YogaHour. I'll let you know how that goes. Classes at my studio grow notoriously slow, but most do grow. Especially at 'bargain basement' prices.
Then, it's back to the Community Center for the Thursday installment of my ASL classes (I'm going twice a week - Tuesdays & Thursdays!).
Interspersed in all this will be a couple short trips home to let the dogs out. They've gotten horribly spoiled this winter -- because one is getting very old and we worry about her on the steps, we have let them all stay inside during the day.
All this to tell you that I am moving into the realm of self-promotion, because - I realize - if I don't do it, no one is going to do it for me. Oh sure, there's good word-of-mouth. But, I also have to 'stand in my own light'; otherwise, all the good 'word-of mouth' in the world is not going to attract people to me. Students might come for a preview, but if I am meek, shy, reticent, and don't effectively take my seat as the teacher -- they probably will NOT be back.
Website back on track; no worm (that I'm aware of); so far, so good!
STRIKE FEAR IN MY HEART . . .
Next, check my website. Horrors! It doesn't come up. Now what -- I've been coasting along without a website person for a year. The site has been reliably self-sufficient, and I haven't had the $$$ to hire someone to become familiar with it 'just in case'. Besides, if it's not broke, why fix it. Well, now what, Einstein?
Maybe it's the worm! Or, maybe, since this has happened before - just once - it is a fluke that will be o.k. in an hour or so. Send positive energy that it is the latter possibility, please.
My view on websites: Example -- let's say you are going to a restaurant that has been highly recommended by your friends for the GREAT food. You drive up, the parking lot and restaurant are poorly lit, the awnings outside are torn, the doorstep is clogged with debris, the glass in the door is dirty. Does it give you pause? It does me. I think websites can be viewed the same way -- they are the first impression someone may get of us. And first impressions are lasting impressions.
Therefore, my website maintenance is of high priority. I get a lot of compliments on it (if you could view it now, I'd send you there -- darn). And, a majority of people are coming to my studio because of the internet. I can only assume they look for yoga in SLC, check out the websites, something clicks with them and they come to the studio. Then - assuming all goes well with the next step (their yoga class) - they continue coming to the studio.
Word of mouth (as argued by one of my yoga friends) is good, too -- but only if you are not running your website in the same manner as my restaurant example.
Boy, I was wondering what to write about this morning. Thank you, Universe. Please, tho, let my website be o.k.
Wednesday -- Gentle Yoga at 10 a.m.; Jail Yoga at 2:30.
p.s. Editing this post to tell you that it's back -- turned out it was a server issue. Whew! But a reminder that a website person would be a valuable tool to have, just in case.
Enjoy your day,
PILATES ! ! !
Yesterday was my first private pilates session with Cindy. Cindy is a yoga teacher (has studied extensively with Sianna, Desiree, Adam, etc.), plus she appears to just love ANY form of physical activity (including letting her husband drag her along to hike up a mountain, just to ski down it). Her zest for life is contagious, and it's good for me to 'hang out' with her -- I need to get a little more 'out there'.
Now, she is going for a Certification as a Pilates Instructor -- no easy feat, from her description. 500 hours of 'serious as a heart attack' (her words, not mine) lessons, practice, observation, teaching, etc. I am fortunate that she asked me to work with her weekly to hone her skills.
I think Pilates will be good for me. Why? To firm my core, to lengthen some muscles, to improve balance, and - most importantly to me - to take me out of my comfort zone.
Other side benefits: to strengthen a friendship, talk, laugh, practice that 'beginner mind' I harped about yesterday -- all good things.
Isn't that chitananda? Awareness & beauty/bliss -- just in a different package.
Now, back to yoga -- I'm going to Wayne's class this morning. He's given me some good tips that, I hope, will open my hips.
Take care,
JUST NOTES
Last week, as I sat in my parent's home a bit bored, I went online and purchased a juicer. I have NEVER in my life made juice. Why, you (and my husband) ask, did you buy a juicer? Well, when in Tucson, a friend met with Cate Stillman (Certified Anusara™ Teacher and Certified Ayurveda Specialist). She came back excited about the prospects Ayurveda holds, and mentioned that a juicer is helpful and that there will be a Spring Cleanse Teleconference. So, I hope to do the teleconference course -- and, I rationalized, I better practice making juice as I wait for May to arrive. Yesterday was the big day -- I bought the ingredients for several types of juice, decided on a recipe from a book my husband bought me (he doesn't mind my purchasing a juicer, he just needed to see what it can contribute to our household), and we made JUICE -- apples, grapefruit & lime (one juice, 3 ingredients). Good, tasty, filling, and not too hard to make or clean up. Looking forward to Cate's Teleconference. To participate, or learn more about Cate, go to http://www.yogahealer.com/.
When I worked in the medical field, I learned just enough to be almost dangerous. What I mean is, that when you know the inner workings, some of the diagnoses and related treatment, the heirarchy of a medical office or hospital, you can be quick to jump to conclusions about your health, quick to critique the care you are receiving, etc., etc., etc. Well, the same applies to being a yoga teacher. Since studying in Tucson and being observed while teaching (and critiqued), somewhere inside me resides an EXPERT. There, I've said it (I've borrowed that phrase from Christina). I can take a class, find all the overused words, critique verbage and instructions, sequencing, etc. I need to be 'slapped up side the head' during those moments, and remember #1 and #2 of teacher qualities (FYI -- here they all are again):
- Studentship (I am ALWAYS a student.)
- Humility (I must remember and honor the SOURCE of my knowledge. I don't know everything -- there is still a LOT to learn.)
- Trustworthiness (Do my students trust me? Do I trust myself?)
- Empathetic (Am I able to relate to students; to enable them to connect with me?)
- Aspire to Excellence (I will continue to read, study, practice, attend classes/workshops/trainings, to improve my teaching.)
- Agility of Mind (As I look around the classroom, am I able to quickly assess the overall group, switch gears, deal with unexpected physical issues, etc.?)
Beginner mind -- I must continue to embrace that concept, no matter how much I learn or study.
Started my ASL (American Sign Language) class last week. Interesting to focus on learning signs, and to really focus on what other people are signing -- without the distraction of teaching yoga. The students in attendance were all there for different reasons: one to volunteer; several families, learning to better communicate with children, grandchildren or parents (even a 5-year-old, whose mother is going deaf); one young man who is taking the class so he can communicate with a good friend (we'll nickname him Hanuman); and me - so I can teach more effectively. It was fun; fun to be with a new group of people, to connect for another reason, to laugh at our mistakes, and to marvel at the skill and excitement of the 5-year-old.
Still snowing -- didn't Mother Nature get the e-mail that it's almost April?
Enjoy Monday,
BUSTING OUT
My heart quality was 'courage' -- after all, it does take courage to wear big hoop earrings to teach a yoga class (for me, anyway). I used shoulder loop, once again, as the alignment principle to focus on; what better way to get rid of your cloak, than to get your shoulder blades firmly on your back - bringing your heart forward -- how dare a cloak cling to our nice, straight backs.
This is a level 1 class (which I just started in January). Attendance has been growing slowly, but steadily, and some are just getting the Anusara™ "lingo". I gave most of those attending yesterday their first foray into handstand.
What do we look for to assure students are ready to give handstand a try?
- Do they understand, and are they, melting their heart when on hands & knees in table?
- Can they hold AMS (down dog) with straight arms and stable, firmly planted hands?
- What's their confidence level? This is something you will find out as you take them towards the pose.
I decided to ask students to take mats to the wall and do "L" pose. On the second go-round, I had one student who was confident in doing this pose (so she was a good one to do a demo); as I held her hips, she took her feet away from the wall. From there, I just worked around the room -- my holding hips, students taking legs up. A couple declined (injury), but everyone else gave it a try. Everyone did "L", tho, which - I think - is a lot tougher than doing handstand with someone assisting you.
Fun class --
Then, I subbed the 10:45 Yoga Basics. Everyone was beyond Basics, so we worked on Ardha Chandrasana (new pose to many of them). I often introduce this pose at the wall -- letting people feel the full extension this pose offers, without worrying about falling. All enjoyed it, so - since I still had my earrings in - we took it back to the middle of the room and did the pose there. Success and fun.
Taking a class today -- it's time to be taught, not teach.
QUOTES
On my 'google' home page, I have a space where - each day - a different and inspirational quote comes up. When a really good one shows, I save it to a file on my computer, called - inspirationally - 'quotes'. I am also finding some great ones as I scour blogs, websites, books, etc. So, those get saved to that inspirationally-named file, as well.
While I am broadening my scope of vision when reading and assimilating quotes, I notice that many I've saved relate to setting your goal and sticking with it.
I can only assume that's because I've set a lot of goals in my life and NOT stuck with them (especially if you count diets and New Year's resolutions).
Yoga, tho, is sticking. To be the best Anusara-Inspired™ (and, eventually, Certified Anusara™) yoga teacher I can be is a goal that is keeping my attention and my commitment. Reasons?
- Community. Lots of people supporting me in this endeavor.
- Physical Improvement. Just look at my back (and ask BJ Galvan). 10 years ago (and maybe even 2 years ago), it was rounded; today -- what a difference! This blog entry would be much longer, if I go into the other physical changes I've experienced; so we'll just keep it at the most remarkable.
- Personal Improvement. I'm a nicer, much less superficial person. When reading Christina Sell's blog, she mentions 'the sleeping world' -- I would have to say I'm emerging from just such a world (moving through life without really experiencing it).
- Connection. To students, teachers, community. I am repeatedly reminded of that connection. In fact, the other day I got a call from one of my 70+ year-old students telling me that she was sorry she missed class - had a doctor's appointment. She also spent a bit of time telling me that she will be going in for surgery next week, but hopes to return to the Gentle Yoga class a.s.a.p. How can I NOT think I am making an impression when things like that happen.
I am sure there are reasons I've missed, but this reminder is enough to keep me going for a while.
Enjoy your weekend,
YOU KNOW THAT LITTLE BUMP ...
I know it's a result of life-long habits -- jutting the jaw forward, poor posture, computer time, driving, reading with the book in our laps, etc., etc., etc. (I just thought of "The King and I", as I wrote that for the second day in a row.)
So, I'm on a mission -- not only do I want to reverse any tendency in myself, but I am also looking at that spot on every student, whether she/he knows she/he has it or not. (Remember, Leslie, what John says: " don't answer the question that hasn't been asked". But, says Leslie to John, "some students don't KNOW they need to ask the question! What do I do then?")
Shoulder loop and skull loop will help, but there are a couple moves that students could do (and probably would do, even at home) if they knew it would help reduce that unsightly bulge. These were taught to many of us at a Desiree Rumbaugh therapeutics session, so you may or may not know them. One is particularly easy to slip in just before savasana.
- Clasping hands just at or slightly above the occiput (back of head), assure shoulder loop is engaged, lift chin a bit, and press head back into hands (skull loop with a bit of resistance). Neck muscles will strengthen, and the increased movement in the region of the 'culprit bump' will bring circulation to that unsightly tissue build-up, causing it to break down a bit.
- Lying on the back, as you move into savasana (unsuspecting students beware -- even if you haven't asked, you'll get it now) bring your arms close to your side, press the elbows into the floor AND press the back of the head into the floor, move chin away from chest. Lift the shoulders away from the floor and hold for a few breaths. Same affect as #1 -- shoulder loop plus skull loop = stronger neck muscles at back of neck, plus increased movement & circulation to culprit area.
Sounds like a mystery blog, doesn't it? No mystery -- we all know how to create change.
Look at your students. I mean REALLY look at them - then, figure out how to get them to ASK the question or slip a helpful move into their practice, as you mention the tendency for many of us to develop these unsightly, changeable features.
Cold here in SLC -- my trees and tulips had started to spring forth, only to be slapped back by this snow and cold. Oh well, after living here 15 years, I ought to be used to it.
Enjoy your day,
AT A MOMENT'S NOTICE . . .
On Wednesdays, I have agreed to back-up one of my instructors, who has a job with on-call responsibilities. I flew back in SLC late yesterday (Wednesday) afternoon, checked for messages from that teacher, found none. So, I went home, settled into the evening's routine. As I was checking e-mail, I heard my cell jingle (text message). He had gotten called towards the end of his first class, and was calling to ask if I was available to do the 7 pm.
Change gears ... breathe ... change clothes ... hop in the car and go teach.
Notice a pattern here? This is at least the third time I have written about 'changing gears, etc., etc., etc.
It was a Gentle Yoga class -- just up my alley. We did some warming up, included a bit of foot work. I find that, though uncomfortable for some, foot work is a valuable tool to add to any class.
I recently received a copy of a formal study done comparing two groups of people (middle to advanced in age). One group did ankle and foot flexion exercises daily; the other did not. When tested for balance skills during and after the study period, the group who had worked with their feet was better able to balance.
Here's a brief description of the routine I've been using:
- Cross R ankle on top of L knee (either seated on floor cross legged, or in a chair)
- Thread fingers of L hand between the toes of R foot, from the bottom of the foot (really get those fingers in there - some people hate this, but it is good for them).
- Grasp the toes and gently move the toes back and forth several times, then do some ankle circles in both directions -- also moving gently.
- Now - my favorite - keep fingers between toes, but relax their grip on toes. As you exhale, use your toes to squeeze the fingers. Do this 3 times.
- As you remove fingers from between toes, push toes towards top of foot, then pull them back towards the sole of the foot -- stretching both the bottom and top of foot.
- Use your thumbs to deeply massage the sole of the foot, working from base of each toe to heel and back.
- Now release R foot to floor and compare to L (lift and spread toes, check out the color difference)
- Repeat on L foot
- When you are done with the L foot, practice moving the toes independent of one another, as follows:
- Keep 4 corners of feet on floor, lift & spread toes. Take pinkie toe to mat, lift & spread toes again, take big toe to mat; now lift & spread and try to take both pinkie & big toes to mat. Done with that? now, keep toes on floor - spread wide and lift just the big toe. Now - I can't do it - but challenge your students to try to lift their pinkie toe, as well (I've seen it done.).
Not only is this exercise good for ALL students (even those who come to class ready to 'kick you-know-what'), but it is a real awakening for some. "Move my toes? I can't. Oh, look, there goes one." And, if you repeat it occasionally they will get better (practice, remember). It requires so little effort, they may even do some of it at home.
Snowing and windy here. Change gears ... breathe ... put away the rake and get the snow shovel back out.
Take care,
THOUGHTS AS I HEAD HOME
The Tantric philosophy of Anusara Yoga reminds us that we are a manifestation of the Auspicious, we all possess the qualities of that Auspicious One (intelligent, aware, free, pulsating, perfect, is). But, most of us hide beneath a cloak (like a cape), afraid-unwilling-incapable of letting our greatness show through. We move through life thinking all is well, but with a slight ‘niggling’ that something could be different and better (at least, that was my experience).
Somewhere, tho, the antithesis enters and, just as we refuse to reveal our greatness, we also believe what we attempt in life must be perfect.
As I teach yoga, I see many students come into class with the belief that each pose has to be done to the max and ‘perfectly’. Even if I offer a modification, I will invariably have a student push aside the prop or suggested option, and teeter on the edge of disaster for the few seconds that she/he is able to hold the pose. Or, worse, not enjoy the liberation that a modification (or prop) can offer -- an opportunity to fully open into a pose without worrying about getting that hand to the floor or losing your balance. Not that I want students to ALWAYS use modifications or props, but they can offer a glimpse of the full pose -- give the body a blueprint to follow for future encounters with that particular pose.
If only we were infused with the word ‘purnatva’ in our vocabulary as children. Purnatva (perfect fullness) in the Sanskrit does mean perfect, but to take it another step in defining – it can more effectively mean ‘perfect effort’. Purnatva – accepting our perfect effort can start to open the door to our greatness.
FYI, I love practices where the instructor asks for our ‘perfect effort’, that we give it our best and accept the outcome. They are so freeing.
What a potential for change that makes in our practice (and our life) – to go from feeling that we have to be able to do everything perfect, to knowing that if we are giving a pose or practice (or life) ‘perfect effort/fullness’ then we are that – perfect. AND, we see just a glimpse of our greatness, to boot.
ON AGING . . .
This is a difficult time -- watching them slowly wind down, forget, sit on the couch too much, complain about things that aren't important, and - hardest for me - refuse to actively participate to make the situation more tolerable.
I had planned to write today about our greatness, and how we cloak that greatness. Slight family argument -- change gears -- breathe -- but, my thoughts are still involved in the family, so you get to hear about it.
We went out for dinner last night with my two cousins and their wives. Since my Dad is diabetic, there needed to be a shot taken and he decided to do it in the car before going into the restaurant. As we parked, everyone arrived and tried to be helpful in the process of shot, wheelchair, etc. Then, at dinner, my Dad's nose began to run. My older cousin reached over and wiped it for him. All helpful, unmalicious offerings. But, to someone who has always been in control, always been in a position of authority (Air Force Pilot, to boot), a bit embarrassing.
This morning I heard about it -- how their helpfulness embarrassed him. I offered the thought that he should step back, look at their motivation: to be helpful, and - for future reference - perhaps mention to my cousin "hey, next time, just tell me -- I still can wipe my own nose".
Not received well. All of a sudden, I was the bad guy. My suggestions were received as a lecture (also not something he tolerates well). I left the room in a huff.
I kept rememberng Sundari's wise words to me when we talk about aging parents, 'this is your yoga, too'.
I went back to calm things, to explain I was just trying to be helpful. I think things are back on an even keel; but, yoga - no matter where it's done - is always a practice.
What can I say, Tuesdays ...
BLOG INTIMIDATION
In talking to a friend yesterday, I mentioned a couple of them (the blogs) and how much knowledge these Certified Anusara™ teachers have. That I feel a bit inadequate when reading them; especially when I look back at my blog -- which, I think has good information, but not nearly the technical or philosophical depth of some that I'm reading.
Her response: Remember what John says are the overarching qualifications to be a Certified Anusara™ Teacher,
- Are you a nice person?
- Do you connect with your students?
- Do you guide them safely through a practice that connects to their heart?
Upon reflection, I have to admit, when with John, I have never felt pressure to be a great scholar of philosophy or even the most flexible, skilled yoga practitioner. He only asks that we do our best, give it our full effort. That other pressure comes from me - like right now, as I read other people's thoughts.
I may never possess that depth, but I am a nice person, I do connect with my students (I know that because they are telling me), and I do conduct classes that are safe, yet challenging, and - more and more - connect to their hearts.
I'll keep reading other blogs -- they offer a wealth of information and knowledge, and I appreciate every word of it. They will enrich my base of knowledge, my teaching and my own practice. As I read, I'll remember I'm 'enriching' not 'creating'.
Here's to another week,
'TEACHING FROM THE HIP ...'
Last Saturday, after Sundari observed and video'd my class, one of her comments was that now I need to teach a few classes without writing everything down (I literally had a script last week -- tho, since I had dress rehearsaled it, I only had to refer to it once.)
Yesterday, that's what I did -- I formulated in my mind what I would talk about, and what poses I might work towards, but NO script.
(By the way, yesterday I broke what I call the "7 Barrier" (replace 7 with sound). Since I took on the Sat a.m. class in January, attendance has stayed steadily at 7; yesterday, there were 8 -- some new people to me, to boot.)
What happened, you ask? Well, I changed theme, heart quality, apex, all within the first five minutes of class. I taught from what I was seeing in the class - who was there, their experience level, their apparent mood, what I could sense they hoped to get from the class (active, mild, whatever). My theme was just that, 'going with the flow', heart quality: acceptance. My apex pose turned out to be moving from trichonasana to ardha chandrasana back to trichonasana -- with control, accepting the outcome as perfect because we are giving it our best effort. We threw in bakasana just for good measure after that -- fear holds many people back in that pose (face plants are not a welcome outcome). FYI, no face plants in this class.
Side note, back to Sundari & Bakasana -- at her workshop in January, she taught us the value of hugging the inner edge of the feet together in the pose. I've probably heard that before, but had never applied it religiously until then. I think I probably was touching the big toes and trying to hug in, but that doesn't create the energy you need in the pose. Immediately getting those feet together works wonders to create the hugging in to hold the pose. Once that is established, you can work to straighten the elbows.
What else happened? They worked hard, we all laughed a bit, and had a good time. I believe everyone left feeling better about themselves; I know I did.
Enjoy your day,
JUST NOTES
Up early to get the house and myself ready to leave for a few days. Going to visit my parents in Spokane. With our crew of critters, and my husband traveling also, that means housesitter will be here; so gotta clean it up. Ever notice that when your purse, your car, or your house are a bit 'dissheveled', so goes your life?
I did get the tax stuff to the Accountant yesterday -- it wasn't a pretty package of paper, but it's in his hands now.
Got a great comment yesterday from a Texas student of Christina Sell's. So glad she took the time to offer her thoughts -- it made my day much brighter. Writing this blog is bringing out a part of me long hidden, that's good. Having people notice makes it even more fun.
Starting to read recommended blogs from various sources. Wow! Check out http://www.yoganerd.blogspot.com/. This Certified Anusara™ Instructor was in Tucson, demo'd a bit, and offered comments in the training -- it was obvious she knew her stuff! Read this blog and any doubt will be erased. She DOES know it, and she applies it -- to even the minute details of our practice (thus, the name "yoganerd").
Taught Gentle Yoga yesterday. This group has formed a kula within the kula -- one student brings the 86-year-old who no longer drives, everyone welcomes each other AND newcomers, and all do the best yoga they can (and help each other pick up the props). When class is over, I take the 86-year-old home (she would take the bus, but this is the least I can do if she's getting her 'you know what' to yoga class). Rides home are interesting. She will usually go to the store next door while I finish paperwork, then sometimes there is a surprise for me -- a chocolate bar, a box of blueberries, yesterday - a chicken enchilada.
It took me a long time to 'allow' people to carry their weight. What I mean is, in the past my tendency would be to not allow her to give me anything. But, I realize now that people give because we want to and because it makes us feel like we're participating. At 86, feeling like you are still a participant is VERY important. So, I accept the offerings. The enchilada was a bit cheesey (real comfort food emphasis), but it made an o.k. lunch.
Teaching two classes this a.m. before I leave for the north. So better get ready.
Windy here today, storm coming? -- Utah has a way of fooling you into thinking Spring is here (70 yesterday), then throws a Spring snowstorm in.
Enjoy your weekend,
TWO THINGS ...
First, there is a goldmine of yoga blogs out there just waiting for us to explore. I received an e-mail yesterday from a fellow Tucson student, suggesting several. I'll explore those and, if they are as valuable as they appear to be, I'll add a link. Note, that's me being the judge -- what speaks to me, may not speak to you -- but, I'm writing this blog.
I also logged onto Christina's blog this morning, after looking at some pictures she had posted of her new home and yoga space, I followed a couple blog links she recommends. There is great potential there, as well. Will keep you posted on those.
Second, I had a great lesson in teacher flexibility yesterday. Thursday mornings, I teach a small group of deaf women at a community center here in Salt Lake. As I've said before - a challenge without knowing much more than the finger letters in ASL. I am working to solve that, tho. Next week I start a beginning class in ASL at the same center. Not only will I be better able to teach them, but learning new skills is a recommended way to hold off 'aging brain'.
Back to topic (teacher flexibility). The class began with just one student in the room. In that situation, I decided - because of her skills - to practice alongside her and take her through a moderate practice. About 15 minutes into our 90 minutes, in walks student #2 -- she had been dealing with a client emergency (legitimate excuse). She is also pretty adept, so she did a bit of warming up and joined our practice. Then, 30 minutes into the 90 minutes, just as I had them at the wall doing a supported Ardha Chandrasana, in walks student #3.
Student #3 has never been to my class (I'm not sure that she has ever done yoga, but she did have her own mat. Remember my limited ASL skills.) A young woman, a bit overweight, who had had knee surgery last Fall.
First, turning her away was not an option -- I'm trying to build this class. Besides, the other 2 were very supportive of her coming in. The deaf population is nothing if not inclusive (I hope I said that right).
So, change gears. Modify. Slow it down. Breathe. Do my best to give everyone a good experience. All said they'd be back next week; I'll keep you posted.
Ah, Fridays